tired of deleting memories

orang cakap,

memori dan pengalaman mengajar

aku cakap,

yelah kita nak buat apa lagi kalau ada memori selain belajar dari mereka

orang cakap,

ko jangan set2 sapa kau jumpa tu betul

aku cakap,

babeng ko down kan aku, ok ar aku terima.

orang cakap,

ko kene jaga hati kaw zhaf, die pon ada perasaan jugak

aku cakap,

yeke bukan hati patut ikut kita?

orang cakap,

dalam semua2 manusia akhir zaman, 1 daripada 70 kumpulan yang ikut imam al mahdi

masuk syurga straight, yang lain neraka dulu.

aku cakap,

cuak doe dengar, ko tak cuak ke?

orang cakap,

buat baik betul2 buat jahat pon betul2

aku cakap,

yang tu aku sokong!

orang cakap,

keluarga dan kawan2 tak dapat dipisahkan

aku cakap,

salah! keluarga dan kawan2 due entiti yang berbeza. cuma diorang penting.

orang cakap,

bodoh la kaw lepaskan die camtu

aku cakap,

dah aku tak perasan masa tulis jawapan tu salah

orang cakap,

sleepless spirit

dear eyes,

why are you guys so stubborn?

every time i close my eyes,

you supposed to be filled with ease and relaxation.

with the dark, cold, feeling accompanied with half warm blanket,

you should have been lost to the spirit world.

wandering around carelessly where you'll end up,

refresh your liquid concentration of and refill new bustling energy

for the use of the next few hours before

you guys are closed again.

but you guys are rebellious!

contradicting and unparallel to the voices of mind

delusion and psychographical stimulation seems to be the solution,

but you guys worse off.

f word!

i dont know how to make u guys went to sleep

my stubborn little eyes.

i hope megan fox is lying besides me. rrrrrr

XD

random post

have u ever watch a movie that had coincidently resembles

one of ur memories?

well i did just now, and im supposed to sleep right now coz tomorrow is

my English paper. stupid lame self distress method again.

i kept thinking about the movie and i cant stop doing so.

so i've decided to post a blog about that. (credit to Farah Hanis "aku tahu niat ko baik" )

its called ' 500 days of summer'

let me make it short and simple.

its a story about a very innocent man whom fall in love with a girl named summer.

he spent 500 days with summer and the last quarter of those days were disasterous.

early in the movie, he was bound to this sentiment that 'there will be a soulmate for everyone.

you dont have to search it, it will come to you'

well i guess you could have guess what happened to him at the end of his time with summer.

but let me do some story telling.

he believed in 'that' feeling called love and termendously put his faith on her as she has same

personality, interests, workplace (thats where they work together)

after a few hundred days, they began to create a quite serious relationship and for him,

he is so sure that both of them will finally get married blablabla...

the climax is where on the 3++ days summer suddenly said ' we should stop seeing each other'

let us imagine how a guy that used to be pragmatically good person, tidy, happy, turned into

a new person with opposite personality, enough describe, just look around you.

youll find thousands of gloom sad face with zombie-walking style. XD

( i find this movie quite entertaining when he looks like me in that same situation) f word!

Here goes some of the quotes i will remember forever " suddenly i wake up in the morning and

i just knew we could only be friends "

seriously funny when he had to be cooled down by his younger sister aged around 13 - 14.

one of the humour-but-quite-sad-for-those-who'd-faced-it is when he kept picking up

a plate and smash on a table. ( what the hell was that for?) -_-"

next, after all the "heartbreaking" incidents. he begin to do all the things he always wanted to do.

architecture art he mastered is starting to warm up in his brain. and he's trying to maximise his

time with activities so that he would not remember anything of her. ( itsss sooooooooooooo same,

sangat sama! )

blablabla.

i think the director has a nice a way to end this movie by introducing a new girl to him

coincidently while he was waiting for an interview with a great architecture firm ( the building is soooo huge) *i like to be one, can or not?

her name is autumn.

the end.

its a nice movie. personally i think viewers would be influenced by the stigma of 'everything is

not a fate, its your effort'. to a certain extent, i agree with this notion.

let us see. if you had done everything just to get something u really wanted for.

it feels worth it right? what if it goes the other way around?

madafaka right? f word keluar lagi.

dont u think when you had done something good or succeed in your field, people will say its your

fate. even if what ever you'd done before worse thousand times and you finally did it at the last

attempt. even if u try to prove everything is not fate, society around you will say "that already

happened, its your fate"

to be logic, i think its true, something will always leads to the other. everything is a circle and it

moves persistently in an abstract manner.

im sorry if my movie review is quite radical about certain things.

my english is not soooo good.

be happy always :)

cheers

run words run!

flood of soulless information.
unmoving words in print.
sincere else fake.
exchanged life for words.

youth, the absolution of passion.
rapid truth and constant changes.
cynicism always closing in.
behaved automaton?, cold you are.

there is no such thing as whole life as smooth sailing.

definisi sahabat

1) yang mempercayai
2) yang menghormati
3) yang menyayangi
4) yang bertoleransi
5) yang membelanja
6) yang memahami

1+2+3+4+5+6 = 21

2+1 = 3

sunat 3 kali salawat bila dengar nama Rasulallah s.a.w
sunat 3 kali baca bacaan rukuk bila rukuk
sunat 3 kali baca surah al-ikhlas,kafirun,alfallaq,annas bila sunat solat hajat

3 kali dalam byk perkara.

3 = 3 + 0

= 30

30 juzuq dalam alquran

1 juzuq bererti 29 tinggal untuk di lalui.
2 tinggal 28.
3 tinggal 27.
dan seterusnya..

30 hari berpuasa, wajib.
tinggal kene ganti.

apa kaitan nombor2 ni dengan seorang sahabat?

1 - percaya
2 - hormat
3 - sayang
4 - toleransi
5 - belanja
6 - faham

kalau campurkan semua dapat apa?
21

kenapa 21 jadi 2 + 1 ?

sebab sahabat2 dalam dunia ni ada 3 macam

macam 1 - punyai satu ciri sahaja dari enam.
macam 2 - ada dua ciri
macam 3 - ada 3 ciri.

rata2 orang tak boleh ada yang ke empat.
sebab seorang manusia hanya ada, malaikat dikiri dan kanan.
dan tuhan yang betul2 patut di hati. dah cukup 3.

kenapa ada enam je ciri?

manusia tak sempurna zaman ni. termasuk aku, kau, mereka, dan kita.

kenapa manusia tak sempurna?
sebab wujud 6 sifat ni. mereka wujud untuk mengadilkan ujian dari tuhan, mungkin..

1 - tamak
2 - rakus
3 - dengki
4 - ego
5 - nafsu
6 - sombong


kenapa ada kaitan dengan al-quran, selawat,puasa2?

sebab bila kita beribadah, tuhan terima? kau tahu die terima? dapat receipt ke?
3 adalah yang terlemah, wujud 7, 9, 11. nombor ganjilkan? ganjil...

aku pon tak nampak lagi. Tuhan memang adil, yang senang dapat dari susah.
susah dapat dari senang. tak kiralah apa cara pon yang kita pakai.

yang salah tetap salah.
yang betul tetap betul.
yang waswas tinggal waswas.

yang bergelar sahabat, kita tak mampu nak jadi yang terbaik.
yang tak mampu jadi terbaik, yang terbaik kadang2 yang paling jahat.
tengok kiri tengok kanan,
tarikan dunia yang buat kita tak betul.

jomlah, samasama kita berubah :)

insya allah

something to be remembered

this post goes to everyone.
you who are reading this.
please acknowledge that my English is not superb
hence please just ignore what ever grammar mistakes i did.

first of all.
i should sleep now.
but my eyes involuntary keeping me awake,
its annoying isn't it?

so i will do most of the stupid stuffs just to make
sure im tired and off to sleep.
but tonight is different,
i walked for hours,
talked for something even i myself is not so sure ( stupid guy's topics)

and i can't sleep.
this phenomena has been going persistently since my MOCK exam passed few last weeks ago.
and i don't know how to repair this 'technical damage'

thats the most stupid part isn't it?
im not lazy, i did something but it just didn't work out.

i hope for something
something that can changes me forever.
random people advised me

"go find a girlfriendlah, she'll keep u busy"

ohhh no.
im not ready for that.
seriously because i learned so much from my previous 'journeys'

people predicts
and never will stop doing so.
so i'll just pretend to have a girlfriend that keeps them keep predicting
im okay and i alright,

but the truth is
im not okay.(half okay kot)

i need to do something
because im bored to get bored.

we teens have so many things to be done in front of our eyes.
yet we feel the time too short to do everything (miss chan thought in class = multitasking)
so, whats the trend there?

i came up with conclusion.

all the journeys, exps, wrong doings,
lead to one thing.

it forms something that we can remember for the rest of our lives.
even when we were bored to get bored.
even when we were laughing our ass off because of stupid 'layang2 dan PSP aksi'
even when we were eating junk food and throw it in the longkang and get scolded by the ficious neighbour.

even when we were scolded for the 'mamak al-saffa tak bayar punya kejadian'
even when we were eating yong tau fu in McD.
even when we were lying on our bed staring at the ceiling wondering ' if im in australia right now..

all these mean much to me
way to much.

i learned something today
experience is the best teacher.

i learned to accept anything that come passes besides me
as something to be remembered

and i'll keep it that way

insya allah. :)

cheers, zhaf.azhar

what ever im doing. im doing it for them

im soo badly in love with their smiles
please god help so i can see them smile again
please i wanna see those smiles that can makes me
happy forever.

:)

sincerely,
mohammad zhafran bin azharudin. 6.13 am 12.10.2009